It's been a while.....

since i last wrote my blog T.T 

i dont have time ? or i need not to express my feelings out anymore ? 

or i dont have one anymore ?  ah ... it's bursting out today 

Sometimes i just feel that i've shut my emotions, my uncertainty, my self-esteem, and what nots....

It's painful, perhaps torturing for me to forsee what i can actually do in the future IF ....... IF i've done all the things i've wanted to do .... I would have achieved what i hoped for .... i would have become a better person...

Seeing all my friends possessing all their talents ..... in no matter... arts, academics, sports, leadership, interpersonal relationship, communicating skills ......and MANY MORE ... make me look small ... extremely tiny... even a minute particles seems larger than i am ... 

YA .. every one is beautiful in their own way ... beautiful just the way they are ... right ?

right ?

yea right ..=-=''

...... I m  hardly motivated now ... 

Something is just not right ..... 

I shall WAKE UP ... and accept myself ... and be the person i wanted to be !!! 

No one is going to discriminate u ...... lor j j ...

u just have got to get your guts and make a change in you... !!!

Ya ... although it is long gone to wherever it is ? ahaha ! 

pheww ... i think i shall write more often ... at least it is something ..? someone ? ahh whatever it is .... a thing i can talk to .... practice talking to blog...... so that it is not so embarrassing when it come to talking to people...ahh what m i talking zzzzz 

k la lor jj ... start ur journey ... buckle up ... 5 months more .... approximately 155 days .. or.3720 hours .. or..223200 minutes .. or..13392000 seconds ....

make these time .worth in your life ..... or else u will get old regretting what u've not done ! by right u can do it well ...... much better than every one else !!! 

OK 

wELL-DONE-J-JUN