7:01 AM
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7:04 AM
It's been a while.....
since i last wrote my blog T.T
i dont have time ? or i need not to express my feelings out anymore ?
or i dont have one anymore ? ah ... it's bursting out today
Sometimes i just feel that i've shut my emotions, my uncertainty, my self-esteem, and what nots....
It's painful, perhaps torturing for me to forsee what i can actually do in the future IF ....... IF i've done all the things i've wanted to do .... I would have achieved what i hoped for .... i would have become a better person...
Seeing all my friends possessing all their talents ..... in no matter... arts, academics, sports, leadership, interpersonal relationship, communicating skills ......and MANY MORE ... make me look small ... extremely tiny... even a minute particles seems larger than i am ...
YA .. every one is beautiful in their own way ... beautiful just the way they are ... right ?
right ?
yea right ..=-=''
...... I m hardly motivated now ...
Something is just not right .....
I shall WAKE UP ... and accept myself ... and be the person i wanted to be !!!
No one is going to discriminate u ...... lor j j ...
u just have got to get your guts and make a change in you... !!!
Ya ... although it is long gone to wherever it is ? ahaha !
pheww ... i think i shall write more often ... at least it is something ..? someone ? ahh whatever it is .... a thing i can talk to .... practice talking to blog...... so that it is not so embarrassing when it come to talking to people...ahh what m i talking zzzzz
k la lor jj ... start ur journey ... buckle up ... 5 months more .... approximately 155 days .. or.3720 hours .. or..223200 minutes .. or..13392000 seconds ....
make these time .worth in your life ..... or else u will get old regretting what u've not done ! by right u can do it well ...... much better than every one else !!!
OK
wELL-DONE-J-JUN
9:53 AM
ABDC !!! Jabbawockeez !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
love them !!! the best dance crew in the world!! haha !!
y i love them ??
i just hope that i can dance like them !! telling the world how they feel through their body ! tell words when they dance ! excellent body language ~
i wish i could have all !!
i wish i m the perfect man that's all
Per?ect-j-JuN
7:19 AM
Sorry , i just want to make every one happy .
but i did the opposite ,
sorry. especially mum.
and sorry that i hurt u wife my lovely MYVI
lost- in -the -pathetic- grave- of-darkest -devil-j-juN
2:00 AM
SERIOUSLY ANGRY AT MYSELF ~!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~ >.<
why r u so lost ??
who r u ?
where r u ?
what u actually want ~ ???
HAiz
please la ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u stupid ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
please let me do so !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u fxxking useless nerd ~
so effortless~ feeling like i m so extremely small ~
what i possesses is so tiny ~FIY subject is $$$$
aka i have so less money ~
nothing i can do ~ T=T
doing the so called ''BUSINESS ''
is not my action of interest ~ seriously ~
argh~!
OMG ~!
deliberately put myself in a sleep mode ~
mentally ~
thinking of not living ~ !!
but live has to go on ~!! what to do ??
haiz ~
watch Secret countless time please ~~ i wanted to own that movie ~!! who have got the movie ~ in ur computer ~?
please send to me ~ T-T ~!!!!!!!!!!!
fxxk'ing stupid-j-juN
9:17 AM
CHRISTINA PERRI - JAR of HEARTS
No, I can't take one more step towards you
‘Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most
I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
I've learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time
It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
‘Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
1:30 AM
